Coming to think of it, i've change too. I've been choosing friends. Unlike the past. Idk too. It's like so damn selfish of me. But i wanna say, friends are important to me. However, none of them are true friends i guess. Friends or enemy. Friends of friends. You don't even know which is true to you and treat you as a f...riend. All the friends you have will someday go back to their own clique. Leaving you. This's life ,i guess. unfair unfair.true friends are rare.. Do cherish them. I hate giving people attitude. Seriously. Because everytime i do that i would feel bad. Real bad. But what's done is done ain't it? Hahas. I want to hang out with you guys. But i'm the extra one. That's what i think. Gahs, if people have know me from sec 1 , they would think i changed alot too . Happy go lucky last time, but now, attitude, emo, dao. Feel like shit. I hate myself for everything.自作自受. That's true. I lost a friend because of my darn behaviour. Have this urge to scream and cry and yell everytime i think of it. Finally, i'm crying now. Fuck myself. I don't attitude any people. Those i show attitude to are those i treat as friend. Too much attitude however can cause strains in friendship. And i'm ...sorry for that. I'm changing for the better. Gimme time. I'll change . thanks for tolerating my crap and shitty behaviour/attitude. love you lots okay? espically you

sometimes i just feel that what i feel and what i do is two total different thing. i wanna do what i want to do deep down in my heart, but i know it's wrong. i act as if i dont care about you, but infact i do. i act normal around you, but deep down i want to tell you how i feel. but i know that someday you too will leave like the rest do. this world is unfair . why? nobody could fix this, only i can fix this myself, but i cant. i'm simply too into you.

thanks . words do count

kinda a idiotic day today. wtfuck. stupid lame fuck. ah, nevermind. went compass after school. spilt with cynthia and co to join szechi and co. :D watch them eat while playing the imbecile test.thanks for the cheering up , guys. seriously, thought it's a few kind words or something, i was really glad to know that you guys care for me. went basketball. it's been a year since i touch a basketball.

love ya lots.

taste good, smells good, looks good!

hahs, back from CA trip. had tons of fun. :D they wanted to eat sakae but it was under renovations. hahas, so went swensens instead. watch them eat. after eating ,walk around crappin and joking around.went Tampines mall with the girls as i somehow got spilt up. they went shopping , while i go slack. lol. goldwin and kangwei came to meet us only after jaslyn, drew, yangle went home. and we cabbed home :D
thanks SzeChi, Jaslyn, Cynthia, Drew, Yangle , WeiZheng ,Dominick , Benjamin, Goldwin, KangWei for making my day an enjoyable one. :D

time flies. exam is going to be over soon. and i'm starting to be in the exam mood -.=
i've been living in my own lie, saying that i dont care and bother about you, trying to forget you but instead i'm just falling deeper and deeper into this love.

it's too late , the feeling settling in.

it's good to have friends by your side, it's really good. but seriously you cant trust them. it's like either they are too busy wiht their bf/gf or other whatsoever stuff. what's more is that i dont even know who to trust. i dont trust anyone anyway. i dont even have someone to talk to. people say i have been hanging out too much with the girls, what's wrong? i want to find someone to talk to too. but is there any? A is B best friend. telling A stuff is akin to telling B stuff. then whats the point of telling? no use right? gahh, nevermind, dont give a damn about them anymore.

seriously, you guys dont know me well enough. it's not that i dont wanna tell. it's just.. too hard to say. truth hurts
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home at 12pm today, went straight back home, and i cant help thinking, some friends are just meant not to be friends. the more i try to forget, the more i cant. :(

computer is the only thing that could that my mind off things. and especially , you. today was happy :D seriously happy. sucha long time since . nevermind. maths tomorrow, gonna prepare.


what's trust? is there someone i can trust?

i made the wrong choice.

Happy Birthday SzeChi (:

had our chinese paper today , was easy or that's what i think so. went compass with szechi and tony after school, feel completly out of place as i was like the 'bulb' . -.- meet up with ben and co at LJS.well , all of them went home , leaving me alone at compass. and i did took my time to think. life full of choices, and Damn ! i have been making wrong choices all along. shall not elebaorate any further then. just that i learnt not to emo infront of people. i shall keep my happy face :D

i'm falling deeper. and i know i cant get out of this mess. FCK! i'm in no one heart

anyone boring day at home, studying? nahs, i dint study at all,seriously, i was just staring at the book. while watching videos at the same time. i know , i know, it's the exam period and i'm still as lazy as ever.just finish watching supernatural 20 & 21 and Vampire Diaries 21 , it really really superb! (: ok. I SHALL really really start studying tomorrow , i promise ? maybe ... (:

i dont know if you could be trusted , seriously, how i hope that you can really be trusted by me. gahh. ;x chinese lesson was fun today :D went english ssl. ._. compass after that, phew, smelly bus. WTF . I need motivation


stupid bitch , you gotta earn what you want. useless retard. at least i know what i can get with my abilities and wont go around yaking for thing i cant get. you want it, you gotta earn it. most of the poly students work part time to pay for thier school fees.be thnakful yours are paid for. go find a job for other extra things you want. dont keep on asking can do this or that. in other words , stop asking for money.

SIAN

(: kinda happy today in school. went straight back home after school -.- ! had my lunch at home, and puke all out ;x sians. gonna sleep . ):


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6.you're smiling
7.you're still reading my comment
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(: kinda happy today in school. went straight back home after school -.- ! had my lunch at home, and puke all out ;x sians. gonna sleep . ):

school was alright just felt moody towards some people. i guess i just need more time. ._. went compass after school. had my bandito (: went home. tried to sleep but cant . 9664886

nothing much to post actually. just had a all-so-boring day in school today. had physics and chemistry test.i knew how to do some of the questions thanks to my tuition!(: stay for maths ssl after school and guess what? i DON'T regret staying cause it helps me to practice my maths which i know i would never do it at home w/o motivation from peers.and i did it myself (: woots! ^^ okay. gonna continue my maths paper now. i gonna give myself motivation (:

dont ask silly question , makes me doubt myself more -.-