Moved my blog back to the old link already. lol . it's been so long since i update something recent, shall post fast ,( hopefully a long post ) before i don't have the feeling. Lessons have resumed , with the whatever bridging programme . i feel like shyt currently, i'm impressed that i can actually be "happy " in school :D trying to keep my feelings and attitude in control recently ! :D it's a good start that i'm trying. hahahah! but , there's still distractions around me. Hope that i can continue to control. Control control control. lolol. Holiday is coming , and i don't have any plans of enjoying currently, probably it's because of .... ANYWAY , i think i'm gotta find a job on weekdays to occupy myself and probably another on weekends to keep my mind off things and numb myself eh? :x that's just dumb. but, i wan moneyyyyy !! money = drinking , Shop spree , movieee !! :D :D . right now , let's just concentrate on working . :D

-4H
i'm sorry . Guys . i know that some of you or probably most of you dislike me right now. trying to change my attitude too. some of you say that when i disiao you guys, and you guys disiao me back , i will bueysong. but the truth is . If that's what you think, means you don't know me well enough. that's my -,- face, but it doesnt mean that i'm pissed . seriously. you guys may say that i'm finding excuses for my mistake or what. but that's the truth. i did'nt take the class photo because i really don't feel like part of the class during that period of time. it's just like the whole world is against me. Family , Friends , Cliques , Other many more problems. i'll understand if you guys are pissed, maybe some of you don't even give a damn. about the IDK what rumours, please just ask me face - face if it's true anot instead of pointing fingers behind me and giving me that 0O look. it's really irratating. i know i'm in the wrong for venting my frusration on you guys (maybe w/o me knowing myself ) and i'm really sorry. it's really awful for me this year. nothing goes right for me. everyone life's is unfair, but mine is totally Fuck up. thanks those who believe me. xx . trust me . i really treasure this class. IDK when you guys will see this post. but i really got a hunch that i'll not make it to sec 5 . Horray to those who loathe me ! :D i'm really really really sorry. you may think that why don't i tell you guys Face- face but i don't have the courage to. sorry.

- Jiahui , Jessery, Jaslin , Rowena , Szechi.
i'm really really really sorry about that incident. i know i;m wrong and awfully stupid and childish about how i deal with it. but. try putting yourself in my shoes. would you like to see someone status which is obviously saying about you flashing in your face? i may be over-sensitive too. ( trying to change that at the moment too ) sorry if i offended you guys. kinda upset with myself for this too. you guys are seriously great friends . blame myself for this outcome. sorry ttm.

and to myself. please control your emotions. please control your thoughts. please control your anger. please control your jealousy. please please. please. Or maybe God would just give me a Pill to make me numb to emotions? :D that would be GREAT . Forget it forget it .. i don't like being a emo freak ass.