444th Post.
lol. guess that it's gonna be another day rotting at home? hais. kinda sad now, idk why also. shouldnt supposed to feel like this. but , i dont know why too. i know i love you, you dont know i love you. i want to tell you how i feel, but i dont know how to tell you how i feel about you. damn. Nothing is the same anymore. those who know me will know. i'm not the old me. i emo now, i get upset easily, i get angry easily, i get jealous easily. last time, all of this doesnt bother me at all. i would just laugh and laugh everyday. maybe i've grown up. feelings are shown more forcefully. but wheres my Guts? the guts to tell you i love you. but. i know it's one sided only. i'm kinda happy that for some time in my life, friends are there for me. but, now ? idk how to say too. but i've got a feeling that we've drift. all of us , yes. but i need you more than anything . too bad, i don have the courage to tell you :( hope that someday i do, and when that time comes, it would be two sided . :X lets hope so , right?

re-reading all my past blog posts make me so happy. but.. alot have changed.