shit, i actually emo today. even for that short while. I felt vulnerable. NO. shouldn't be this way. it's not suppose to be me that's feeling that way, it should be you. yea, this should be the last time for me. actually. i feel that human are selfish, well, obviously, they are selfish. When they need you, they come running to you, after that ? they just throw you and leave you to die. alone and bitter. that's my impression of you guys now. everything changed, friends, relationship, family, well, not everything is supposed to be perfect , right? you just have to adapt to those situations, make yourself stronger. :) dont say that you're there for me, cause you dont. you just gave me those few words and run off, leaving me in the same depressed state. But, nahh, dont worry, when it's your turn , i would even console you ^^. omg, i'm becoming a hater, no, apparently, i am already a hater in people eyes. who cares ?! i'm me and this is me. i know there are those who really care, but, i just cant get those shit outta my head. i feel like breaking down whenever i start thinking, really. i just cant control it. i tried to stop thinking, but the result is that i would think even more. i dont want to either. i just wish that there would be someone. someone who's willing to listen to me, understand. but FML, there isn't and there won't be one. no offence meant, but seriously, i dont kinda like my classmates. Not that kind of meaning, but it's like i think some of them are just born idiotic. doing idiotic things and acting like one. LOL. nevermind. i seriously need counselling. really. damn. i dont know where to find one and the courage to go . DAMMN

i often stop to think if things in life are really worth it , after much serious thinking. i though no, they are not worth it, but in the end, i would often chase after things that arent worth my time. seriously. no one freaking cares. shitloadsofcraps. damn. ijustfeellikegettingoutofschool!