Boring yesterday, practically rotting at home whole day. :x.
thanks Aaron for the movie anyway :)

and yeah , i dont know what wrong with me. seriously, you guys may think i'm weird or whatever fuk.but doyou guys ever put yourself in my postition and think from my point of view? yeah. i'm just being used for all of your entertainmen. i'm sure about that. need me, find me. dont need me, just throw me aside. thanks a million. really . whats the fuck is wrong with me. FK. seriously. i think i have mental issues. FML. FML . Fuck you. Why do i keep thinking? why ? Fuck.. i really need to let my frustration. why am i always the second , or maybe last? why why why?FK. yeah. use me for all you can now. cause someday. i;m gonan fuck your life upside down SO badly. but, now. i will just emo like a fuker.

444th Post.
lol. guess that it's gonna be another day rotting at home? hais. kinda sad now, idk why also. shouldnt supposed to feel like this. but , i dont know why too. i know i love you, you dont know i love you. i want to tell you how i feel, but i dont know how to tell you how i feel about you. damn. Nothing is the same anymore. those who know me will know. i'm not the old me. i emo now, i get upset easily, i get angry easily, i get jealous easily. last time, all of this doesnt bother me at all. i would just laugh and laugh everyday. maybe i've grown up. feelings are shown more forcefully. but wheres my Guts? the guts to tell you i love you. but. i know it's one sided only. i'm kinda happy that for some time in my life, friends are there for me. but, now ? idk how to say too. but i've got a feeling that we've drift. all of us , yes. but i need you more than anything . too bad, i don have the courage to tell you :( hope that someday i do, and when that time comes, it would be two sided . :X lets hope so , right?

re-reading all my past blog posts make me so happy. but.. alot have changed.

WOW! Thanks LotS! for treating me like a fool and idiot! love TTM sia! ♥ THANKS :D

idk. but i think its best this way.

feeling depressed now .

been reading people blog as maple is down. Was kinda happy that at least we all shared some memories together. however, things have totally change, didnt it? i dint even know when it all started. by those one or twopeople. then. it all changes.. majorly depressed. i dont know where i stand, why i exist for. what am i doing. waht i am to everyone. yeah,i know . people would probably say, ohh. emo again. heckcare. nah.i'm not emoing. it's just my thoughts. really kinda wish to enjoy this holiday.but well. impossible right? haha. actually i'm still kinda surprised that you guys would even talk to me. lol. anyway. yeah. continue to be hermit crab^x^

seriously, i think its kinda idiotic la. not you but the things you do, er, you say you wanna work? ask me find. ok. then say no money. ok. BUt you no money still can go out siol?! ask you when find, never reply. wth? dont want find tell me la. dont like sixian ley. wtf. why also got things let me feel like a idiot. -.- zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. nvm.

feel like we've drifted, friends from secondary one and all. kinda saddening. but this is life , isnt it? seperations. stuffs. hope that all wil be better .

today i'm talking about love.
if you think that this is nonsense.then please. get out of my blog.

well. i think that relationship are just crap.i mean , well . you are happy and loved in a relationship. but seriously. do you guys ever see blogs of those who're in a relationship? there would be iloveyou.imissyou.iloveyouforever. blahblahblah.yeah, it's kinda sweet. but when they breakup. well it turns into hate words. i mean wtf? saying iloveyou forever and when you guys breakup, after a few months, both parties have new bf/gf and the whole cycle restart. -.- and i think that those who are over dependant on relationship are kinda naive. please. be independant. so what if the guy or girl leaves you? plenty of other good catches out there. yeah. feeling is important, but no point clinging on to someone who doesnt love you back. seeing things at same level is important too. else conflict would be endless.quarreling over small matters. and ohyes.i hate those people who love someone alot for a moment. and when the feeling fades. he/she start to see each other as an eyesore. wtf ? please. dont be so childish.can still be friends . -.- . okay. go back to rotting in maple. .. no life kid. yeah i know.

gahhhh, stayed at hommee the whoooleeeee day. wtfzxz. wanted to go out to buy Stuffs in the morning. went there. then see the shop haven open. was thinking to myself. eh wierd ley. then i realized casue it's only 8am in the morning. super dumb la.-.- went home. rooted infront of the computer for 12 hours , eh nono , 15 hours. WTF?! :P wednesday outing cancel. is like wtf. -.- hais. nevermind. tomorrow maybe going out. hope that i'll have the mood to go? lol. not mood actually , is money! LOL! i think i have enough, do i? er, yeah, i think i have. lol. that's all? i think. haha. kinda happy with it this way too. seriously. not involving in stuffs. but observing as a bystander. Karma dude .KARMA

LOL!
maplemaplemaple.!
i;m no maple addict! :x
haahahah.
kinda found something i dont have.

HEYYOOO!!!

LOL! feeling so happy for no reason today?! it's good , ain't it?!! HAHAHAH!

yeah, pictures of Maple and Blackshot. Though i'm gonna update something interesting right?! :P LOL! i'll! next week when i go out !! :D What more can you expect from a guy blog?! :P

ok, one decent post . okay?
try laa :D

ok, recently , i'm into maple AGAIN.
0,0 but now i'm playing bootes :D
heheh. i'm not addicted to it ! *cross fingers*
kindness makes people smile.
for example , in maple. sometimes, while walking about, ramdom characters would offer to train you. such small acts seriously do put a smile to my face :D it's like, knowing people still care and notice you.
not that i'm saying in reality no one cares.
fact is , i dont even care those who dont care about me ! right?
why bother looking for trouble and disappointment? :D
went F&N practical yesterday.
sweeettt! lolol . makes me worry if i would still be able to see Mrs Koh next year, kinda use to her nagging all these aye?
went home after that. borrinng . ><
wanted to go out today.
woke up, feeling so damn moody.
rainy day, caught a flu!!! damnn!
and there's O level chinese tomorrow ! argh!
good luck to those taking O level chinese uh!

back to maple again:D
lol. anything message me :D

we drifted.
we sepearted.
where's all the promises?
lies.

i feel that i've change. not for the bad, but for the better:D


friend uh!!
organise outing leyyy!
so borrrrinng.or worrk !
lets find work together before the O level students find work too!

xNeurons :D
maple is sseriouslly so full of idiots

this Holiday is so freaking boring.
wanna go out.
work.
..-.-

why do humans have to grow old ?
why can't we stay 18 forever ?
why can't we be happy everyday?
why can't we get what we want?
why can't be friends with everyone?
why can't we have lots of money?

i really fear that one day, when i;m old , while recalling the past, i would regret my actions.
love you guys alot. T_T nooo, please. do experiments on me to let me be immortal

fugg, i wan a job so badly. arghh. recently, everything have been irritating to me. waht happened to them ?! zzz. nevermind. i dont give a damn anymore too. as time passs, i can see how each people react to you. LOL. it's alright. i don't need all of you if you guys are like that._. i bet you guys wil see that i always say it's alright. cause it's the only thing i can say. friends come and go to you. yes, i can see that. how i wish i could secure a spot in your heart. Impossible