Test, practical ,Exams, Common Test , CLinical Attachments, Assignments . OMG , they are driving me crazy. But somehow, I'm not worried eh?

Hey All !  Been ages since I last posted, i know , i know .

I had my best night yesterday :D know why? Cause we had a secondary school BBQ gathering, it was awesome . Felt so happy that we are all enjoying our poly /jc life. But I can't help but feel sad, sad that time passes so fast, separation . I could still remember my first day in Secondary 1 , the friends I met, how I get to know them , those memories still bought a smile back to my face whenever I think of that. I really miss those guys very much . 5 Years have pass in Secondary school , and we are continuing our Life in Poly / Jc's . I hope that all of us could be what we aspire to be , or at least , what we feel happy to be . All the Best to All my Friends. 2011 5B forever . :D

Living my life as mundanely as it can be. gosh, i need to go out. Work infact has kept my mind off many things , however , some things happened at work which is so WTF to me. god, need a listening ear. I am suddenly reminded of the times where I would tell you everything, now , its hard to even meet you. .. thing changes. but you still mean alot to me.

DUBSTEP

You would be the hardest to get over . Really . I don't know how you're treating me . Iike last time ? Thought all that was over

Well , suddenly remembered that this blog have been left to rot for ages. and... here i am trying to post something, but the moment i logged into blogger, i lost the mood to blog!! ahahahaha , typical uhh... okok , so chinese O's paper is coming up which is TOMORROW , and I'm trying to score at least an A1 or A2 which i have to depend on my paper which is my best :))) and next monday is the last O level paper!!!! which is .... Combined Science mcq :DD after that, it's partyyyy time guys !!!!!!! vwooooo

shit, i actually emo today. even for that short while. I felt vulnerable. NO. shouldn't be this way. it's not suppose to be me that's feeling that way, it should be you. yea, this should be the last time for me. actually. i feel that human are selfish, well, obviously, they are selfish. When they need you, they come running to you, after that ? they just throw you and leave you to die. alone and bitter. that's my impression of you guys now. everything changed, friends, relationship, family, well, not everything is supposed to be perfect , right? you just have to adapt to those situations, make yourself stronger. :) dont say that you're there for me, cause you dont. you just gave me those few words and run off, leaving me in the same depressed state. But, nahh, dont worry, when it's your turn , i would even console you ^^. omg, i'm becoming a hater, no, apparently, i am already a hater in people eyes. who cares ?! i'm me and this is me. i know there are those who really care, but, i just cant get those shit outta my head. i feel like breaking down whenever i start thinking, really. i just cant control it. i tried to stop thinking, but the result is that i would think even more. i dont want to either. i just wish that there would be someone. someone who's willing to listen to me, understand. but FML, there isn't and there won't be one. no offence meant, but seriously, i dont kinda like my classmates. Not that kind of meaning, but it's like i think some of them are just born idiotic. doing idiotic things and acting like one. LOL. nevermind. i seriously need counselling. really. damn. i dont know where to find one and the courage to go . DAMMN

i often stop to think if things in life are really worth it , after much serious thinking. i though no, they are not worth it, but in the end, i would often chase after things that arent worth my time. seriously. no one freaking cares. shitloadsofcraps. damn. ijustfeellikegettingoutofschool!

Store in charge changed from tomorrow onwards. well,i'll miss you guys , :) . all those happy memories:)hais, shall continue the good memories with the rest of my colleagues there:)

well, second day of school. currently , i'm still keeping up with my cheerful attitude. but i think it's crazyyy !!! LOL!.. sad to say, changed of seating arrangement today :( sad ttm!! hahaa, i didnt talk much , therefore i'm still at the back of the class, my favourite seat!! but sad to say. liying left me for douglas!!!! LOL!! sounds wrong, but she left seating with me and went to seat with douglas instead ! :X anyway, Audrey seat with me instead! lol, gonna be crazy, brenda infront of me, jerome too. lolol. i think i would laugh over the slighest thing. lOl. :D haha, it's good to laugh you know, keeps you young^^ went compass to slack after school . and off hoomeee, shucks. set my alarm at 5.15pm, but slept to 5.55pm instead, nearly late for my tuition ... duhh. ?and damn, i'm addicted to the 7-11 hot chocolate. D: why doesnt our school have a 7-11?

upcoming events : Work on Friday , Saturday. :):):):):):):)
: O level chinese result on 10 jan.

to do : Be happy
: dont think too much
: Homeworkkkss! D:

F&N tomorroww . 9 more months. 9 more months and it'll be over, out of this damn school. get a good grade, go to a poly. meet new people. enjoy life. !! 9more months!! I CAN DO IT

Went out alot this few days. money gone like waatterrrr.. omggggg!! Went to Jasmine house one Christmas:D funfunfun!! ton at her house, went home at 8am. slept till 1pm.. then went out for primary school gathering:D they go KBOX ! OMG, damn. i didnt sing at all. as you know. if you hear me sing, means you're very fortunate.. D: shall try to sing la. but can't get over the "stress?" -.- anyway after that, went marina barrage and talk till 1am plus. and cab back to buangkok to slack with peeps. seriously, i think my primary school friend is AWESOME. AWESOME TTM ♥ !

well,today got back Ns level result. 15 points. i must say that i was so so afraid that i was not gonna make it. had Ms Toh farewell thingy too. as for darren. well, all i could say is. all the happy memories and fun would be remembered and missed. well, hope you'll buck up in whatever school you'll go. hope that you will succeed. saw kinda a few people cry today. makes me so emo. but well, life's a bitch, people leaving and stuffs. so why dont we cherish waht we have now before we lose another one? although we pass Ns, but there's Os , good luck all. ..
:(

feel that i have neglected my friends. lol. why bother making someone else your friend when they dont want to? shall just stick to myself. sometimes i thnk. if i change to a more zi bi behaviour, will it be alright?

i just get so pissed over stupid answers and questions. why? what ? wtf. it hard trying you know. making people your priority in life whereas they make others theirs. you think i'm what? robot? no feelings? wth. i m still alive and kicking here hello,? wtf. omg. seriously. dont give people comfort when you feel like giving and then kicking them aside when you're busy. detest this kind of people. mutherfucking piece of shit

chalet wasnt as fun as expected. but however, it was nice meeting up freidns you havent see in some time. miss you lots you know. ? lol. i mean freinds -.- anyway. hope that i'll promote and see you guys agn next yearr..

why sia. really eh. friends issue always fuck me up. JAs & clique. idk what to say. that benjamin and dominick -.- . tony ley. got jovi. become inseperable. fuck.. FUCK LA. Srsly. i think that i ought to be more social. really. dont give a fuck. live w/o anyone. yeah. fuck. FCUK. FUCK -,- -'- sua. Knnbccb

Boring yesterday, practically rotting at home whole day. :x.
thanks Aaron for the movie anyway :)

and yeah , i dont know what wrong with me. seriously, you guys may think i'm weird or whatever fuk.but doyou guys ever put yourself in my postition and think from my point of view? yeah. i'm just being used for all of your entertainmen. i'm sure about that. need me, find me. dont need me, just throw me aside. thanks a million. really . whats the fuck is wrong with me. FK. seriously. i think i have mental issues. FML. FML . Fuck you. Why do i keep thinking? why ? Fuck.. i really need to let my frustration. why am i always the second , or maybe last? why why why?FK. yeah. use me for all you can now. cause someday. i;m gonan fuck your life upside down SO badly. but, now. i will just emo like a fuker.

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lol. guess that it's gonna be another day rotting at home? hais. kinda sad now, idk why also. shouldnt supposed to feel like this. but , i dont know why too. i know i love you, you dont know i love you. i want to tell you how i feel, but i dont know how to tell you how i feel about you. damn. Nothing is the same anymore. those who know me will know. i'm not the old me. i emo now, i get upset easily, i get angry easily, i get jealous easily. last time, all of this doesnt bother me at all. i would just laugh and laugh everyday. maybe i've grown up. feelings are shown more forcefully. but wheres my Guts? the guts to tell you i love you. but. i know it's one sided only. i'm kinda happy that for some time in my life, friends are there for me. but, now ? idk how to say too. but i've got a feeling that we've drift. all of us , yes. but i need you more than anything . too bad, i don have the courage to tell you :( hope that someday i do, and when that time comes, it would be two sided . :X lets hope so , right?

re-reading all my past blog posts make me so happy. but.. alot have changed.

WOW! Thanks LotS! for treating me like a fool and idiot! love TTM sia! ♥ THANKS :D

idk. but i think its best this way.

feeling depressed now .

been reading people blog as maple is down. Was kinda happy that at least we all shared some memories together. however, things have totally change, didnt it? i dint even know when it all started. by those one or twopeople. then. it all changes.. majorly depressed. i dont know where i stand, why i exist for. what am i doing. waht i am to everyone. yeah,i know . people would probably say, ohh. emo again. heckcare. nah.i'm not emoing. it's just my thoughts. really kinda wish to enjoy this holiday.but well. impossible right? haha. actually i'm still kinda surprised that you guys would even talk to me. lol. anyway. yeah. continue to be hermit crab^x^